Who really knows

Wow, can't believe I haven't been on here in like two years. I honestly forgot about even having this for the longest time. Took me forever to remember my password that's for sure. WELP, what's new? Pause. What is new? Really though, I'm still at the same job I was at in my last posts, going on 4 years now! I've been moving up, slowly, but that's progress non the less! Started as a hostess, moved onto a server, now a bartender and even being asked to apply for management!! Crazy how hard work pays off! Still trying to figure out school and what I'm doing with my life but for now I think this is exactly where I'm suppose to be. Who knows how long it will be until I'm back on here again. Maybe another two years for all I know! A lot can happen in two years that's for sure! Been in a committed relationship with the best guy ever for over a year and I can only hope that that wouldn't have changed by the time I'm on here next. Who know what life has in store for good ol Nicky B! All I know is it's nothing I can't handle ;) until we meet again, blogger world! Keep it classy.

I cannot wait to go to the lake! Seriously, just get me outta here! AHH my 'a' button is giving out on me! Recently, my 'r' button completely broke on me aand it cost me 55 bones to fix it! FIFTY FIVE!! I haave so much other stuff that I could use that money for. Ugh, oh well. Summer has been going good. Working, friends, pool. The usual! If only the clouds would disappear and give me some sun for once :)

that's that

Well. This sucks.

Holy, I just read every one of my blogs that I've written. Definitely brought back some memories!! What has been happening in my life? Not too much of anything now that I think about it. That 'new job' that I had almost a year ago is now my only job and basically the only thing I ever do! I can't believe that I've almost been working there a year and I am already the longest working hostess try have! Crazy. Anyways, university was lame just like I had predicted..so happy that's over with. Now I have to decide what I'm going to do. I definitely don't want to go back, but on the other hand I don't want to be charged rent by my parents. Ugh decisions decisions. All I known is university is not for me. I don't really know what else to talk about, frankly I had forgotten completely about this blog until I noticedthe little icon on my phone. Still, it's crazy to look back on those blogs and laugh about all that stuff like setting off the alarm at the pool, or meeting that creepy worker named johnathan. I guess some things have changed since I wrote in this blog last. I got and lost a boyfriend (he was a weenie anyways), I got 2 more piercings. Wait 2 or just 1? I forget. I've realized who my true friends are and who are just the 'filler' friends. Yes I am talking to you. You, the one who has no need for me other than when your drunk 'best friend' has bailed on you ONCE AGAIN, then when she comes crawling back you dump me, or I should say US, like a sack o shiiiiiiiit. We'd been best friends for a looooong time, but I'm not going to deal with this shit forever. Ahhh as unnecessary as that rant may have seemed, I feel alot better knowing that not only did I get it all out, but I don't really have to worry about her reading this. I'm a sneaky bastard.

holyshiet

WHAT.THE.FUG.
where the beep did summer go. honestly i feels like just yesterday that i was sitting in my physics class hoping that summer would come faster, and now..its over!! OMFG. so basically my summer consisted of doing nothing. well i got a new job but thats about it. hung out with friends..did the usual stuff. and now...well now i go to university. everyone keeps talking about it and they're all excited and shiz but really i dont care about it. i'm not excited or nervous..i literally have no sort of emotion regarding university. its something i have to do so im going to do it and thats basically how i feel about it. the sooner it gets started, the sooner its going to end. im SICK OF SCHOOL!! i've been in school for 12 damn years already, so i'm sorry world if im not jumping for joy to start all friggin over again. but oh well, you gotta do what you gotta do i suppose. lets get this shiz over with

As our lives change, from whatever

so..that was highschool, huh? some people i've talked to have said that they can't wait to leave the place of which they just spend the last four years. honestly, im going to miss it so much! and if i had the opportunity, i'd do it all over again. yes i know what some of you are thinking, "what the f, are you joking nicole?! i hated highschool!" and that is when i'll relpy, yeah..i had my days where i just wanted to punch someone in the baby maker and yeah..i've had the days where i just want to go home and sleep cause i'm so damn tired...but overall, i loved highschool. i met some of the most amazing people with the most amazing personalities and i made some pretty great friends. that being said, highschool wasn't all hunky dorey. As i sit here, thinking about some of the hardest, saddest, and most disappointing times of my life, i'm saddend to realize that they almost all land between the span of grade 9-12 (that could just be because in elementary the saddest thing that ever happened was when someone took out the new Franklin book before you.) The first time i was ever majorly punished by my rents was in grade 10. it was soo bad peeps...but now that i think about it, i was such a little "teenage fuck" and i needed a swift kick in the behind to give me a reality check. Another big event that pops into my head would obv be my nextdoor pal, Ted. okay, so he wasn't really a pal...or even someone i'd really known but either way when he killed himself it was a very sad day. one my saddest i suppose..but through the ups and downs highschool was definitely one of my most rewarding times of my life. i'm really gonna miss it no matter how drama filled it was. the past 4 years have flown by and if i would have known how quickly they would pass, i wouldn't have taken a moment for granted. But as Barack Obama would put it, it's time for change!

i am yoda

ahh yes, what to write about today. uhm so greece and turkey was amazeballs. i actually had the best time ever and i miss it there so much sooo im definitely going back. MWAHA. some of the highlights would be rooming with ashley (i think kayla would agree!), riding the donkey, getting woken up at like 5 in the morning to listen to prayers througout Istanbul and probably just meeting new people and getting to know people i didn't know too well before this trip. it was such a great experience! coming home sucked ballz tho, not only was i jetlagged as sheit but tons of stuff changed. well i guess not tons, but being in a different country for 10 days and not worrying about anything and not having any drama and then coming back to saskatoon (drama central) and being right back where you started really sucks. everything was so peaceful and beautiful there and it just sucks to be back with school and work. i def got bit by the travel bug though, thats fosho. i can't wait until i leave again so i can escape this shit hole hahahaha. sorry s'toon. I MISS SULEMAN!! OMG. he was the best tour guide ever, honestly if i ever go back to turkey im calling him up. AND MICHAEL! he was pretty cool too! he was all, "use your senses!" hahaha so funny. i had such a good time with everyone on the trip too, i could've stayed for another 10 days no problem! although there were a few people that i was getting a little annoyed of (chaperones) but other than that i would do it all over again. i can't even process how shitty saskatoon is. i mean not saskatoon in general but more the people living here. i mean, everybody just walks around like they're the bees knees and they never take the time to get their heads out of the clouds long enough to notice that there is so much more to life other than what shoes to buy or how you want to do your hair so that hot guy in math notices you.
i guess what im trying to get at is that you should live life to the fullest, because you only have one life to live.